may 2026:
feeling
worthless, suicidal
doing
social withdrawal
watching
twin peaks
playing
enter the matrix (gc)
reading
one nation under god: how corporate america invented christian america
eating/drinking
butterscotch candy
listening to
my own suicidal ideations
site updates:
uhh... does this status count?
april 2026:
feeling
depressed, high
doing
therapy
watching
various movies from my watchlist: one trick pony (not paul simon's best work), vivarium (BAD), the lighthouse (not bad), booksmart (good, fun!), porco rosso (pretty decent), el camino (didn't do much for me)
playing
on a tf2 binge
reading
the matrix comics
eating/drinking
bad pizza, even worse beer
listening to
gianmarco soresi
site updates:
i haven't updated a thing on this website in months. RIP
january 2026:
feeling
rage
doing
the job hunt
watching
blade runner (1982 + 2017)
playing
bits & bops (omg utterly adorable game)
reading
the price of salt
eating/drinking
snacking pretzels, kahlua hot chocolate
listening to
my wind chimes
site updates:
experimented on landing page for collections (wip), created sticker collection (wip)
december 2025:
feeling
improvement
doing
midwest furfest
watching
wicked: for good (and sobbing so much)
playing
among us lollll
reading
oops, i haven't read much this month
eating/drinking
lou malnati pizza and yummy tasty alcohol
listening to
youtubers talk about the gnostic gospels
site updates:
added "about" page
november 2025:
feeling
meh, a little depressed
watching
dune (2021 & 2024)
playing
neopets hehehe
reading
capital vol. 1, very slowly
eating/drinking
orange juice with lotta pulp
listening to
npr
site updates:
added gallery for commissioned art, published plushie collection (wip), made 3D guestbook icon
october 2025:
feeling
sober
watching
south park (for the first time lol)
playing
osrs
reading
hell is a world without you
eating/drinking
burgie & sodie
listening to
various
site updates:
improvements to folder system, cleaning up code
august 2025 pt.2:
feeling
awakened (jk, it's not that deep)
watching
sailboats
playing
rummy, scattergories, bags
reading
the deficit myth
eating/drinking
crepes and uh.. water?
listening to
the waves lapping the lakeshore. susurration, if you please
site updates:
no thanks, i'm on vacation
august 2025:
feeling
fine
watching
napoleon dynamite (apparently this is a comfort movie for me)
playing
time splitters 2, gamecube
reading
jesus and john wayne, still
eating/drinking
edibles
listening to
office ladies
site updates:
updates to 'other art' page, unpublished matti page
july 2025:
feeling
imbued with the spirit of summer 🏖️
watching
the matrix reloaded, revolutions, AND resurrections. also the Animatrix
playing
binding of isaac
reading
jesus and john wayne
eating/drinking
home-cooked meals, long island iced teas
listening to
this
site updates:
it's been a slow month for the site, minor adjustments
june 2025:
feeling
motivation
watching
neon genesis evangelion
playing
PMD
reading
my lesbian experience with loneliness
eating/drinking
nectarines, black coffee
listening to
ex-evangelical youtubers
site updates:
added status bar to home page. adding new gallery pages under art tab.
may 2025:
feeling
refreshed
watching
the matrix
playing
ori and the blind forest, darkest dungeon
eating/drinking
mushroom tartine, mimosas
listening to
too much news :(
site updates:
worked on experimental plushie page
